We are all in the gutter...

but some of us are looking at the stars.

The Green Goddess
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I.

Keep always this dim corner for me, that I may sit while the Green Hour glides, a proud pavine of Time. For I am no longer in the city accursed, where Time is horsed on the white gelding Death, his spurs rusted with blood.

There is a corner of the United States which he has overlooked. It lies in New Orleans, between Canal Street and Esplanade Avenue; the Mississippi for its base. Thence it reaches northward to a most curious desert land, where is a cemetery lovely beyond dreams. Its walls low and whitewashed, within which straggles a wilderness of strange and fantastic tombs; and hard by is that great city of brothels which is so cynically mirthful a neighbor. As Felicien Rops wrote,--or was it Edmond d’Haraucourt? - "la Prostitution et la Mort sont frere et soeur - les fils de Dieu!" At least the poet of Le Legende des Sexes was right, and the psycho-analysts after him, in identifying the Mother with the Tomb. This, then, is only the beginning and end of things, this "quartier macabre" beyond the North Rampart with the Mississippi on the other side.It is like the space between, our life which flows, and fertilizes as it flows, muddy and malarious as it may be, to empty itself into the warm bosom of the Gulf Stream, which (in our allegory) we may call the Life of God.

But our business is with the heart of things; we must go beyond the crude phenomena of nature if we are to dwell in the spirit. Art is the soul of life and the Old Absinthe House is heart and soul of the old quarter of New Orleans.

Wouldn't it be loverly?
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If you'd like a Christmas card from the Englishman and I in London, then please send your address by private message or to schrodinger.cat.is.dead@gmail.com. It is tradition, after all.

Be well.

Emily

To live is the rarest thing in the world.
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Hello again everyone,

Apologies for dwelling on my departure. I've been told that some people have been asking why I left and I thought it would be easiest to give a response here.

Let me start out by emphasising: No particular event or person provoked this. Both David and I have been a part of the forum for a significant portion of our lives, and I think it has just ran its course. No one knew we had been discussing our departure; it is something we definitively decided on Monday morning between the two of us after months of toing and froing.

Even though David also decided to leave, I won't be speaking for him in this journal entry; these are my reasons for leaving. My decision was twofold. On one hand, I became less interested in the content on the Forum. It is no secret that I am an atheist and a scientist and I live my life based on evidence. I am not interested in uncovering whatever truth lies behind the supernatural, mainly because I've not come across anything that is convincing. Nor do I think Anne Rice is a ghost writer for a three hundred year old vampire with clues hidden in the pages of each novel. My interests and views - in politics, LGBTQ+ rights, feminism, scientific knowledge, philosophy, art, humanism, etc - started to really misalign with the direction of the Forum. And I found myself avoiding many topics simply because I didn't want to argue anymore.

Maybe that sounds pacifist and pathetic - I think I've made a reputation for myself as a bit tenacious and argumentative. And in my everyday life, that is true. My aversion to argument signalled the second problem: As a place, the Forum was no longer as important to me as it once was. I'm nearly 30 years old now, I'm no longer the teenager I was when I first joined. And as I've gotten older, I have realised that I want to pursue authentic, meaningful conversations and friendships with the little free time I do have in my life. I have been disappointed many times with the secrecy surrounding the Forum. It is, of course, the prerogative of both members and moderators to keep their lives hidden and private. However, I cannot continue to pretend this interaction translates into friendship when it is so one-sided. In the end, I feel like I am giving a lot more than what I am getting back; it is tiring. And, I cannot do it anymore.

This, of course, does not apply to all of the members, and I greatly cherish the reciprocal friendships that have developed from this place. I prefer to continue friendships on other forms of social media where this is easier (i.e. Facebook, Twitter, Instagram) and I am always happy to meet people in person if you are ever in London. Please let me know if I have missed anyone from social media since I would love to continue to stay in touch.

I am truly sorry if these reasons do not satisfy you or if you have a hard time understanding them in one way or another. I am always available for a chat here on LiveJournal with private messaging, as well as through other social media and face-to-face conversation here in London if anyone would like to discuss this further. I am not one to shy away from giving a direct answer and I am always happy to talk.

As always, be well. Keep in touch.

Emily

To Life.
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From today, this journal will no longer be updated and I've had my username deleted from the Forum. But please do keep in touch; I'm on Facebook and I'm always happy to meet up with people in London.

Be well.

Emily

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